time shifting 202X (revisited…)

Original:  https://withlovedotio.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/time-shifting/

 

It’s 2019, and I’m still standing… still inhabit the same 24 mile radius, but the times are slightly different.  I am ever more in love with life as I realize that it must come to a close for us all.  That fact saddens me a bit, but it just reminds me that everyone is deserving of love and affection.  As a former soldier-at-arms, war just seems so senseless and brutal.  War is not simply two countries at odds.  It is a wishing to take the vital life force out of another, creative, physical and otherwise.  I go to bed with trauma every day.  Each day I wake up stronger in a sense.

I’m not ashamed to say that I’m still on the razor’s edge of poverty.  Some would say that it’s in my lack of trying, but only God can judge.  I could give a fuck about non-constructive criticism anyway, too old and close to death.  If an accident befell me in this country, I think I’d be royally fucked.  And that goes for my child as well.  For lack of knowledge…

Trying to figure it all out as I go.  extempore existence… I have a feeling that where I stand is not the city for me, may not even be the right fit for a country.  I vowed to take a bullet for this people.  Now I’d only do it for certain people.  Knowledge of what to do, and where to go… I live in a social bubble.  Not sure what are the right questions to be asking, and which city to stand.  Can’t afford to take reckless chances, yet a feeling of doom permeates the longer I remain.  Like, it’s just wack here, y’know?  lol

I forgot I had this blog so long.  Reading me in 2015, but it’s not quite me.  So much has happened.  A song of hope and survival sung at least 3 years… when I’m in despair, I seem to gravitate back to old posts, and it makes me happy to know that I survived being less knowledgeable than I am now.  But for divine grace…

Still/blowin’/swisha/sweet/smok/just to/calm my/nerves… ( ;

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5 thoughts on “time shifting 202X (revisited…)”

      1. HAha i ToTAlly UnderStanD as my
        Wife and i STaRted
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        Housing on
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        3 College Degrees
        And the same
        Job for 6 Years
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        i’m a traveling
        Blog anyway who
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        Life even if
        We live in Hell
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        Visited that
        Place For 66 Months
        Attaining Financial
        Independence
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        Poorer than the
        Homeless Person
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        Essence oF
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