citrus fruits help keep me sane during these winter months.
dining on a budget is another story…
talk about feelin’ schitzo~
Would love to say something inspirational, or flowery, or even downright lusty, but the truth is that I’m feeling kinda messed up on a purely physical level. low metabolism, and for good reason! just need to chill… er, it’s too cold to chill… well, you know what I mean!
Job search stuff is okay. Again, being on public assistance makes it WAY less stressful. Less like that ‘gun to your head’ feeling of last year, and more like, ‘my time is worth more than X$/hr.’ What is your time worth? yolo
don’t really feel like blogging today. but I must. validation helps. alcohol helps sometimes. oi. makes me feel like rick james, lol.
the experience of living can be quite stressful at times, hell I’ve already lost a fair bit of hair in the process. feeling what it’s like to get older, and it’s not all pretty. ran for the bus yesterday for the equivalent of two NYC blocks, and was winded for 15 minutes after. not typically, but then again… life hasn’t been typical since… well, almost a decade ago. Ups, downs and many sideways motions… but still here. I am thankful that I am still here. Nothing but divine grace keeping me alive right now.
Saturn… the cross… mercy…
I’ve met so many beautiful people this year alone. Rediscovered the best parts of my familiar daemons, as well. I fall deeper in love with love, with the people of this world whom have persevered. With children, who have no clue what is to come… God grant mercy on their hearts.
Sometimes I feel like giving up, but then I’m reminded that it can be really lovely underneath it all.